I have tried doing the blog thing a couple of different times and have never really stuck with it. Lately I have read a couple of blogs from some of the strongest women I know, and they truly inspired me to try it. My story is no worse or more inspirational than anyone else's. I do not have trouble opening up about the things that we have been through, but sometimes I feel like people don't really care. So, this way it's up to you if you want to read or not!!
About 3 years ago we found out that we are infertile. The question repeatedly comes out "whose fault is it?" It doesn't matter. We are a team and this is God's will. Knowing that God had other plans for us, we immediately started talking about which avenue we wanted to journey.
Foster care has always been something I felt led to do. We went into it with the intentions of adopting only. God led us a different way. For the past 2 1/2 years we have been fostering 3 siblings. Their goal is still to return home to their birthmother. It has been a roller coaster of emotions. We still don't know where their permanent home is. The stress this causes us is nothing compared to the stress it puts on these three children.
We can question it all we want, but ultimately God knows what he is doing. These are not OUR children they belong to HIM! (As easy as it is to type that...it is much harder to actually practice it). We have seen them shed tears time and time again not knowing what is expected of them, because it changes based on where they have been that day. We continually pray that our words are Godly words and that HIS light may shine through us.
Hey Jen -
ReplyDeleteI stumbled across your blog and can echo the triumps and struggles of the foster care, infertility, and adoption journey. If you need a good laugh (or a good cry), you can read my "Confessions of a Momzilla" at http://adventuresinfosteringhope.blogspot.com
Jane Freidinger