It has been a crazy busy, wonderful couple of weeks. Poor Ashton had to have his tonsils and adnoids removed last Thursday, and we have been trying to get him well since. He is doing great, but just trying to take it easy.
Taking it easy is not easy during the busiest time of the year. Our first Christmas together has been an absolute joy!! The kids got way too much stuff, and have been loving every moment of it! Both of our families have totally taken these kiddos in as their own. It has been truly wonderful. I feel so blessed to have them here.
They have also been opening up so much over the last few weeks. Today we were told again that we are the "best mom and dad." I did have to break down the other day and tell them about their birthmom's situation. Without going into details with them, it wasn't a pleasant conversation. They needed to hear it, though, so they could move on. Since then, they have only been more loving and open with us.
The boys have been telling us some of the things that they have gone through in the past, and every day, I am just SO thankful that they are with us. They are safe, healthy, and happy!! I couldn't ask for more :)
Lord, thank you for blessing me beyond my imagination. Thank you for blessing these children beyond theirs!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
God's Amazing Timing
I am continuously amazed by God's perfect timing. For a couple of months, one of my preacher's wives has been trying to connect me with a friend of hers. She said we have similar stories and thought we should meet. I am not great with words, and never seem to say the right thing, so I was reluctant. But I knew God was telling me to go, so I obediently went. On the way, I just prayed that God use me however he deemed worthy. I would just follow his guidance.
When my new friend walked into Panera, I was immediately calmed and felt peace. She was so sweet, and there was absolutely nothing to be stressed about. We grabbed some dinner and had a wonderful chat. She began by telling me her amazing story of adoption through foster care. As it turned out, we work through the same agency, and know some of the same people. In fact, the first person that we met at LSSI was the first person she met at LSSI...amazing!!
She knew the heartache of thinking she was going to adopt a child and then have it fall through. I could relate to that because of losing our 3 children back in August. When she got her daughter, the goal was a 23, and our goals is a 23. The same birth parent issues were present with her situation as ours. The whole time she was talking I was just thinking about our situation and how similar they were.
Then I told her out story. I basically started at the beginning and told her all the drama up until now. I do not have the happy ending yet that she does, but it was just a reassurance to me that no matter what the road, God is in control.
That was obvious to me that night. God told me I needed to be there, and I did. He led Denise to bring the two of us together. He led me to Denise a couple of months ago to have a conversation that put the idea of getting the two of us together into her mind. Every little detail of our lives is already known by our amazing God. And yet, I am always blown away that he would care that much about ME! To put me in the right place at the right time.
I was so reassured and refreshed by this simple dinner at Panera's. My heart was warmed and it gave me the strength to get through this possibly long journey of hopeful adoption. Whatever the road, I know my God will carry me through!!
Lord thank you for caring enough about me to place wonderful people along my path!!
When my new friend walked into Panera, I was immediately calmed and felt peace. She was so sweet, and there was absolutely nothing to be stressed about. We grabbed some dinner and had a wonderful chat. She began by telling me her amazing story of adoption through foster care. As it turned out, we work through the same agency, and know some of the same people. In fact, the first person that we met at LSSI was the first person she met at LSSI...amazing!!
She knew the heartache of thinking she was going to adopt a child and then have it fall through. I could relate to that because of losing our 3 children back in August. When she got her daughter, the goal was a 23, and our goals is a 23. The same birth parent issues were present with her situation as ours. The whole time she was talking I was just thinking about our situation and how similar they were.
Then I told her out story. I basically started at the beginning and told her all the drama up until now. I do not have the happy ending yet that she does, but it was just a reassurance to me that no matter what the road, God is in control.
That was obvious to me that night. God told me I needed to be there, and I did. He led Denise to bring the two of us together. He led me to Denise a couple of months ago to have a conversation that put the idea of getting the two of us together into her mind. Every little detail of our lives is already known by our amazing God. And yet, I am always blown away that he would care that much about ME! To put me in the right place at the right time.
I was so reassured and refreshed by this simple dinner at Panera's. My heart was warmed and it gave me the strength to get through this possibly long journey of hopeful adoption. Whatever the road, I know my God will carry me through!!
Lord thank you for caring enough about me to place wonderful people along my path!!
Friday, December 3, 2010
To Santa or Not to Santa....That is the Question
I am having a hard time doing the socially acceptable thing this year. I don't know why this year is so much more difficult than every other year. Our 3 kiddos are super obsessed with "Santa" and his seemingly amazing magnificence. I have never really had a problem doing the Santa thing in the past. I guess it was because our previous kids knew the true meaning of Christmas. They knew that the idea of Santa was just for fun, and so it was no big deal for me.
This year is so different, because we haven't had the kids long enough to really have that kind of impact. They think that because they asked Santa for something, they are automatically getting it. Cebastian asked for a car AND a motorcycle that you can drive around...Seriously? Those things are like $300 bucks each!! He's not even getting one of them!
I am trying hard to work with them about the true meaning of Christmas. They understand that it is Jesus' birthday, but to be honest, it's just not that important to them. I have absolutely NO Santa decorations in my house, only Nativity type things. Yet, still they practically worship Santa. I feel like as a society we spend so much time and energy trying to convince our children that Santa is real. "He knows when you are sleeping...He knows when you're awake..." Then they at some point find out that it was all a big lie. Then we turn around and expect them to believe us when we tell them that Jesus is real. How can we expect them to believe in Jesus when their idea of Santa was proven false?
So I am not doing the Santa thing...I don't know how to avoid it without crushing the past 3, 5, and 6 years of their Christmases, but I am working on that. I will not focus this holiday season on a lie. This is a time of celebration of the birth of our Savior. It is not a time to "worship" some imaginary being. All Santa does is teach us to be selfish and be good so we can get things for ourselves. I want to send the focus outward. Let's do something for someone else because of what Jesus came to do for us!!!
I do want to clarify that I have no problems with anyone else celebrating Santa...but for me it just doesn't feel right anymore. I want my children to trust that what I am teaching them is TRUTH. I will not begin our lives together on lies.
Lord help me get through this holiday season with YOU as the focus. Help my 3 children see that you are the reason for the season, and that Santa is just like Mickey Mouse or any other fictional character!! Only you can open their hearts to your love. Use me to guide them to you!!
This year is so different, because we haven't had the kids long enough to really have that kind of impact. They think that because they asked Santa for something, they are automatically getting it. Cebastian asked for a car AND a motorcycle that you can drive around...Seriously? Those things are like $300 bucks each!! He's not even getting one of them!
I am trying hard to work with them about the true meaning of Christmas. They understand that it is Jesus' birthday, but to be honest, it's just not that important to them. I have absolutely NO Santa decorations in my house, only Nativity type things. Yet, still they practically worship Santa. I feel like as a society we spend so much time and energy trying to convince our children that Santa is real. "He knows when you are sleeping...He knows when you're awake..." Then they at some point find out that it was all a big lie. Then we turn around and expect them to believe us when we tell them that Jesus is real. How can we expect them to believe in Jesus when their idea of Santa was proven false?
So I am not doing the Santa thing...I don't know how to avoid it without crushing the past 3, 5, and 6 years of their Christmases, but I am working on that. I will not focus this holiday season on a lie. This is a time of celebration of the birth of our Savior. It is not a time to "worship" some imaginary being. All Santa does is teach us to be selfish and be good so we can get things for ourselves. I want to send the focus outward. Let's do something for someone else because of what Jesus came to do for us!!!
I do want to clarify that I have no problems with anyone else celebrating Santa...but for me it just doesn't feel right anymore. I want my children to trust that what I am teaching them is TRUTH. I will not begin our lives together on lies.
Lord help me get through this holiday season with YOU as the focus. Help my 3 children see that you are the reason for the season, and that Santa is just like Mickey Mouse or any other fictional character!! Only you can open their hearts to your love. Use me to guide them to you!!
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