Oh my! Life can change so abruptly that you wonder which way is up sometimes. 2 days ago I thought I had about 6 weeks to prepare for our new beautiful daughter. We were starting to talk about what we wanted to do in her room. I was making plans for daycare, and things were seeming to fall into place. On Monday, we had a visit with our caseworker and we found out that there were some complications with the timeline of the move. I can't go into all of the details on here, but basically he thought there MIGHT be a chance we would move her a little sooner than planned.
On Tuesday (yesterday), we get called from our caseworker that he wants to move our little girl THIS FRIDAY! While we are oober excited, we now have 2 days to prepare for her arrival (which by the way is more time, still, than we had to plan for the boys' arrival.) So I contacted the daycare, and they are able to get her in starting next week (phew!) We got the boys bunked together tonight, and I started putting all the clothes that my awesome sister-in-law gave us for her. Things are pretty much ready, but the room may not be quite as inviting as I wanted it to be for her arrival. The boys are SOO excited to have their sister in the same house as them.
Just when life seems to be settling down, a curve ball always seems to be thrown! I love it and wouldn't change a second of it.
On a side note, they boys spoke to their birth mom on Monday night also. I was trying to be open-minded to this, but deep in side I was still resistant to it. I told myself that if God didn't want to allow this phone call to happen, he would put a road block in the way. After the phone call, all I felt was sadness. My sadness was for their mom more than anything. The boys had to repeat themselves several times throughout the conversation, and it was just heartbreaking. Even though I don't think she could ever parent these 3 children, it is still sad to witness exactly what her limitations are.
Father, thank you so much for knowing what is best for us. Even though I resist, help me to obey your commands. Help me to honor you and do your will, and not what I think is best for me. You are my father, and you know what's best. Thank you for knowing the outcome even when I don't. Thank you for bearing the burden.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
Updates
I had a long conversation with our caseworker tonight. I guess the kids' mom is back in rehab and wanting to talk to the boys. She wanted to get them cell phones and the caseworker said absolutely not (thank goodness!) The compromise is that we are to call her at rehab once every other week and the boys can talk to her for 2 or 3 minutes. Not too long to get them upset. I am a little nervous about this, but trust that God will take care of it. If it is not supposed to happen then he will put an obstacle in place to prevent it from happening. The other thing is mid-November or so they may try to do a parental visit with mom if she does everything she is supposed to between now and then.
The other big news is that we have a date for the boys' sister to move in! December 3 is the big day as long as nothing comes up between now and then to prevent it! We are excited that we will get to have Christmas together and have special bonding time! Hopefully everything goes smooth sailing from now until then.
Lord, I trust that you know what is best for these three little angels. Your timing is perfect and I am just going to trust your will. Thank you for all the blessings you have placed in our lives.
The other big news is that we have a date for the boys' sister to move in! December 3 is the big day as long as nothing comes up between now and then to prevent it! We are excited that we will get to have Christmas together and have special bonding time! Hopefully everything goes smooth sailing from now until then.
Lord, I trust that you know what is best for these three little angels. Your timing is perfect and I am just going to trust your will. Thank you for all the blessings you have placed in our lives.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Are Premonitions Reliable?
So many things have happened in the past couple of weeks with my extended family, my immediate family, and my personal career. We have started transitioning the boys' sister by doing visits and they have been going great. She seems to really know what our expectations are and she is starting to really fit in with our family.
About 3 and a half years ago, when we found out we were INFERTILE, we were devastated. My now father-in-law (we'll call him Craig), told us not to worry. He said that sometimes he gets vivid visions (he called them premonitions I believe). He told us that he saw a BLONDE little girl in our future. At the time we took little comfort in his words. When we got a placement about 6 months after that statement and it was 3 African American children we chuckled about his comment. When it looked like they were our forever family, we thought Craig made a mistake.
Then everything changed and pretty soon we had two Caucasian boys living with us and we found out they have a sister. Then we meet their sister and she is blonde. COINCIDENCE? Maybe. So now we know that pretty soon she is going to come to live with us and there is a decent chance that we will adopt her and her two brothers. So today we went to our nephew's first birthday party. We had a good time hanging out with family and then we left.
A couple of hours later I got a text message from Craig. He asked if I remembered his premonition and I told him that I did. He said that today when she was sitting on the floor it was the exact same pose that he had seen in his VISION. (OK now that is weird). He also said that in his vision he couldn't see her face because he was somewhat behind her, and that is how they were sitting today! I told him that he was giving me goosebumps. Then he said that she doesn't know it yet, but he and her are going to have a special bond one day. He can feel it! Wow! Maybe this is it...maybe this is our FOREVER family...maybe Craig was right all along...maybe we just needed to wait for God's perfect timing. We shall see!
Lord, thank you for knowing what is best for us when we have no idea what your perfect plan is! Thank you for telling us no when we are fighting so hard to hear a yes. Thank you for reminding me that you are in CONTROL of my life!
About 3 and a half years ago, when we found out we were INFERTILE, we were devastated. My now father-in-law (we'll call him Craig), told us not to worry. He said that sometimes he gets vivid visions (he called them premonitions I believe). He told us that he saw a BLONDE little girl in our future. At the time we took little comfort in his words. When we got a placement about 6 months after that statement and it was 3 African American children we chuckled about his comment. When it looked like they were our forever family, we thought Craig made a mistake.
Then everything changed and pretty soon we had two Caucasian boys living with us and we found out they have a sister. Then we meet their sister and she is blonde. COINCIDENCE? Maybe. So now we know that pretty soon she is going to come to live with us and there is a decent chance that we will adopt her and her two brothers. So today we went to our nephew's first birthday party. We had a good time hanging out with family and then we left.
A couple of hours later I got a text message from Craig. He asked if I remembered his premonition and I told him that I did. He said that today when she was sitting on the floor it was the exact same pose that he had seen in his VISION. (OK now that is weird). He also said that in his vision he couldn't see her face because he was somewhat behind her, and that is how they were sitting today! I told him that he was giving me goosebumps. Then he said that she doesn't know it yet, but he and her are going to have a special bond one day. He can feel it! Wow! Maybe this is it...maybe this is our FOREVER family...maybe Craig was right all along...maybe we just needed to wait for God's perfect timing. We shall see!
Lord, thank you for knowing what is best for us when we have no idea what your perfect plan is! Thank you for telling us no when we are fighting so hard to hear a yes. Thank you for reminding me that you are in CONTROL of my life!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
This Crazy Roller Coaster We Call Life!
For the first time in my life, I feel like I have completely given EVERYTHING over to God. It is not easy. In fact, it is one of the hardest things in life to do. But when you do it the rewards are amazing!
Last Tuesday I got a phone call at work to do an interview at one of the brand new schools in our district. I was surprised, because it was for a position that I DIDN'T even apply for. It was one of these situations where my name was in the job bank, and they pulled it out. I was surprised and excited.
So I got to talking to one of my friends at work, and she had recently spoken to this principal about me. The conversation wasn't SPECIFICALLY about me, but my name came up. A few weeks later, I have an interview with her.
I was really excited about the position, but I told God it was in HIS hands. I wasn't worried or nervous about it. I just laid it all over to him. I was still hopeful, and I still wanted the job, but I left it up to him.
The interview went beautifully. I was confident in my answers and felt really good when I left.
Then it was the weekend, and we were gone. I barely even thought about the job.
Monday morning, as I'm walking in (later than usual) to school, I wondered to myself when I would hear about the job. I go into the office and I had a message. The principal was calling to let me know I had gotten the job!! I was ECSTATIC!!
So I am frantically running around trying to get everything in order for the job switch. I am letting the appropriate people know, and telling my family and friends. Things are going great. I am gathering as much information and as many resources as possible. Today I went over to the unit office to fill out some paperwork. When I got back to school I got a phone call from Brian.
He had heard from our caseworker. We are getting the sister permanently. It is not going to happen for a couple of months. We are going to do several more sibling visits so that she can get more used to us, but it is REALLY FINALLY happening! Everything is falling into place. When you truly trust God, he blesses you beyond your wildest imagination. Prayers have been answered in my life. Things I have been praying about for years. It was all for God's perfect timing.
I was beginning to think that I would never have a real teaching job. I was beginning to think that I would never have a real family. I thought I might never have a daughter. Could this be my family? Are these the children God meant for us all along? I will love and appreciate these children in a way that is different (not better or worse) than most can understand. When you desires something so badly for so long, it feels too good to be true when it all starts falling in place. How AWESOME is my God?!?
Lord, thank you for all the blessings that you have poured onto my family in the past few days. I am so undeserving, yet you provide nonetheless! You are AMAZING. Help me to continue trusting you for everything and giving it all to you!
Last Tuesday I got a phone call at work to do an interview at one of the brand new schools in our district. I was surprised, because it was for a position that I DIDN'T even apply for. It was one of these situations where my name was in the job bank, and they pulled it out. I was surprised and excited.
So I got to talking to one of my friends at work, and she had recently spoken to this principal about me. The conversation wasn't SPECIFICALLY about me, but my name came up. A few weeks later, I have an interview with her.
I was really excited about the position, but I told God it was in HIS hands. I wasn't worried or nervous about it. I just laid it all over to him. I was still hopeful, and I still wanted the job, but I left it up to him.
The interview went beautifully. I was confident in my answers and felt really good when I left.
Then it was the weekend, and we were gone. I barely even thought about the job.
Monday morning, as I'm walking in (later than usual) to school, I wondered to myself when I would hear about the job. I go into the office and I had a message. The principal was calling to let me know I had gotten the job!! I was ECSTATIC!!
So I am frantically running around trying to get everything in order for the job switch. I am letting the appropriate people know, and telling my family and friends. Things are going great. I am gathering as much information and as many resources as possible. Today I went over to the unit office to fill out some paperwork. When I got back to school I got a phone call from Brian.
He had heard from our caseworker. We are getting the sister permanently. It is not going to happen for a couple of months. We are going to do several more sibling visits so that she can get more used to us, but it is REALLY FINALLY happening! Everything is falling into place. When you truly trust God, he blesses you beyond your wildest imagination. Prayers have been answered in my life. Things I have been praying about for years. It was all for God's perfect timing.
I was beginning to think that I would never have a real teaching job. I was beginning to think that I would never have a real family. I thought I might never have a daughter. Could this be my family? Are these the children God meant for us all along? I will love and appreciate these children in a way that is different (not better or worse) than most can understand. When you desires something so badly for so long, it feels too good to be true when it all starts falling in place. How AWESOME is my God?!?
Lord, thank you for all the blessings that you have poured onto my family in the past few days. I am so undeserving, yet you provide nonetheless! You are AMAZING. Help me to continue trusting you for everything and giving it all to you!
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